It's so easy when one has been hurt or betrayed to close oneself off to engaging in other experiences positive or otherwise with others. Recently, I have been determined to protect myself, due to certain personal circumstances from ever allowing myself to be put in any position again to be treated as such. I told myself that these recent events have made me stronger, and they have, but I was prepared to close myself off from being open to others in life.
During my morning meditation, I received a message telling me to remember that love is the core of us, and not to ever close myself off from it. As I was receiving this message the sun shown upon me so brightly out of the crook of a tree branch. I looked up trying to focus on it and got such a warm feeling, a beautiful feeling. I knew that God was saving me from myself. He was guiding me back to my heart and spirit.
I now know that 'hardening' my heart isn't the answer to being hurt no matter how deeply. God is love and he made us in his image. We are love too. I'm so grateful for his unyielding ability to remind me of who I am during the worse circumstances. I know that I can't move any faster than God wants me to. I must be patient and learn the lessons along the way. I must show Him my unyielding faith by making the choice to trust Him even when the outcome could very well be completely different that my choosing. I'm letting go of how things should or ought to be, of expectations of others ( a lesson I've been learning repeatedly).
It is during my trials and tribulations that I must learn to grow stronger in love instead of taking refuge from it. Learning not to have expectations of others will serve to stay focused on the process of relationships instead of the outcome. Most important I'm again reminded who loves me in and out of this world, in spite of what I do or feel, who loves me just because I am...
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