When I feel like I can't go on, he is there
When I forget and slip into worldly actions, he is there
When I have something to celebrate, he is there
When I need to be corrected or disciplined, he is there
The more I exist in this world, the more I do not choose to be a part of its culture. I can see things much more clearly from my teachings with God and through prayer. So many things I once coveted aren't desirable, and goals I thought were the most important have fallen to the bottom of my list or completely off of it.
What I crave is the peace God offers. Im doing my best to cleanse my life of actions ( such as yucky language that occasionally slips out :} ), and other things that do not support his glory. I've recently done a house cleaning of my I Tunes library, books and things that really are so opposite God's truth and ways that I no longer enjoyed them without feeling that it just didn't feel right any longer. My actions are all a part of my spiritual cleansing that I feel is vitally necessary in order to keep growing in God the way he expects me to.
Forgiveness is a huge issue in my life and a big one for God. Its an area I'm constantly struggling with. So many times I was sure I've let go only to have the same issues and feelings about a person or situation re surface over and over. The frustration I feel from this gets to be overwhelming because it's affecting my life negatively and I realize that I'm Not really forgiving in my heart. I've claimed forgiveness because I know God wants and requires me to do so, but thats only part of forgiveness. I know I'm supposed to forgive whole heartedly in my heart just the way God continuously forgives us. I'm supposed to extend that grace to others... I continually pray and seek God's help to allow the Holy Spirit open my heart and allow me to fully forgive. I'm ever so grateful that God has patience, much more than I have and that I'm being allowed to learn humility and grow into a state of forgiveness through Him...
All of life's trappings won't keep me from keeping my eye on the prize so to speak. My main goal is to live and become the person God created me to be, to share and spread his word and to live to honor him. I love him enough to do exactly that!
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